suicide prevention


If terror had a face, what would it look like?  How about anxiety?  Depression?  Anger? 

If you know me, even a little bit, you know that I am a very grounded, solid, matter-of-fact, practical, realistic, and straight-forward.  I had successfully mastered most of the important aspects of my physical life before I formally embarked on a spiritual path. I’m not patting myself on the back here, I’m simply giving you some reference to what I’m about to write.

I had dabbled in some ‘new age movement’ spirituality, which felt really good, was new, interesting, and exciting, but only on the surface because I still hadn’t learned how to successfully merge my physicality with spirituality.

Sh*t hit the fan when my 14 year old daughter began to ‘see beyond the veil’.  She began to SEE, FEEL, and HEAR energy, her deceased ancestors and other spirits, and she began to pick up on other people’s energy and emotions as well.  This caused an overload of her senses, which lead to her experience all of those negative emotions I mentioned above, without them being hers. I ask you to take a moment and imagine what that would be like. (Dear parents, this happens to many at puberty but to varying degrees.  Some unknowingly turn to junk food, alcohol, smoking, and drug consumption, street or pharmaceutical, in order to block or numb themselves). The most relatable medical explanation would be a schizophrenic diagnosis, as it also runs in both her parents’ families, but being familiar with the devastating side-effects of those medications, I was determined to go as far out-of-the-box as I needed to go to help her before even considering the pharmaceutical route. Talk about being dropped in the middle of a foreign city with no money, no map, and without knowing the language.  How could I help my daughter?

I’d read a few books, had some healings, and taken some workshops, but without having had her spiritual experiences myself, I had no frame of reference to guide her. I reached out to my local spiritual community, and while everyone was eager to help by sharing their perspective and advice, they couldn’t give us any effective tools or information that truly made any difference. 

This is where The Modern Mystery School (MMS) entered our life.  Whether it was coincidence, synchronicity, or just plain luck, I stumbled upon the school.  Frankly, it seemed a little too good to be true.  The North American headquarters was an hour drive away, it indicated a 3000+ year old lineage (older than Christianity, and yes, I had considered consulting a priest, rabbi, shaman, etc…), and everything I learned from the school seemed to put my daughter’s experience into perspective in a very real and factual way. 

With time, I watched her relax. Her fear and confusion began to melt away, being replaced with strength and confidence.  With the ancient Mystery School teachings, she was able to not only manage living simultaneously in physical and multiple spiritual dimensions, but she began mastering them. 

In the past twelve years since our introduction to the MMS she has experienced and accomplished more than others have their whole life, because she uses the tools she received to navigate life.  This is a 180 degree turnaround from her previous suicidal thoughts. (I also have personally benefited by training alongside her, but I’ll leave that for another day.)

A few years after our initial tiptoe in, I realized that there were SO many more children, teenagers, AND adults who have had similar experiences but didn’t know where to turn to and get the proper support.  I then knew that I needed to affiliate myself with these teachings and healings in an official capacity.  So, here I am, a certified healer, teacher, and guide with The Modern Mystery School, and this is not a whim or hobby, this is who I am and what I do!

This sounds like such a feel-good story, right?  However, for the past twelve years I have hesitated writing about my daughter’s experience primarily because it opens us up to another level of vulnerability. Remember Newton’s 3rd Law, every action has an equally opposite reaction.  While our family has had extreme positive results forging into the strange and unknown world of authentic spirituality, we’ve also experienced immense backlash.  This/the MMS is not mainstream, it’s not taught in our schools, medical system nor everyday religion, and it is weird, so much so that I have been rudely questioned, judged, insulted, and threatened over and over again for this affiliation, and because of my choices, so has my family. But!

I have now changed my mind because of what is going on with humanity today. The world has turned up-side-down.  People don’t know what to think or who to trust anymore.  Fear and separation are rampant.  Fake news and cancel culture are feeding the negativity and destruction on the planet.  It is NOW that people need REAL stories and experiences to help them navigate their discernment. 

This is my WHY!


This post is dedicated to the Lineage Holders of The Modern Mystery School, Founder Gudni Gudnason, Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon, Ipsissimus Hideto Nakagome, The Council of 12, and all of the other Master Teachers. It is because of their dedication and sacrifice that these tools are available to us at this moment in time.

Click HERE for my daughter’s story.

Share this Post

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *