A Barenaked Lesson

 

Last year my husband and I took a trip to beautiful Newfoundland to celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary. On the last day, as we got seated at a restaurant for lunch, I glanced around my surroundings and noticed a dynamic looking person sitting at the next table (kitty-corner to our table). And while I’ve only seen professional photos of Alan Doyle, most famous for Great Big Sea, I was sure it was him because he hails from Newfoundland. He was sitting at a full table of six and I wasn’t about to disturb their lunch for a photo or autograph.

Trying very hard to NOT be obvious, I looked at the table again and saw another adult male with his back to me. Deep down I just KNEW it was Ed Robertson from The Barenaked Ladies. So, I texted my husband, who was sitting right across the table from me, and 4 feet away from Ed Robertson’s back, “I think Alan Doyle and Ed Robertson are sitting beside/behind you, OMG!!”. The waitress came, casually took our order, and discretely confirmed that it was them. Can you imagine my excitement? I suddenly felt 15 years old again.

They finished lunch and slowly began to leave, except for Ed, as he waited by the stairs while one of his children was in the washroom. This was approximately ten feet away from me, and out of the corner of my eye I saw a waitress ask to take a photo with him. According to my husband, one moment I was across the table from him, the next moment I was not, as I grabbed my phone, flew over to them, and asked “Can I get a photo too”?

Ed was most gracious and not only agreed to a photo, but asked me if I am from Newfoundland, or if I was here for Thanksgiving too. My 15 year old star-struck self kicked-in and I began to blather and babble about it being our 25th Anniversary, how we’ve never been to Newfoundland before, isn’t it amazing, it’s our last day, and that my kids and I are huge fans, and on, and on, and on about everything and nothing. I got my photo (and as you can see I’m looking a little stunned), said “Thanks so much”, and went back to my table. When he left a few minutes later, he smiled towards my husband and I and said “Happy Anniversary”.

I was both excited and elated, but I also felt something else I couldn’t quite put my finger on. You see, I spend a lot of time and energy on achieving inner peace and I regularly observe what is going on in my life to see what triggers me. When I experience a certain emotion, it means I have an attachment to something, and attachments take me farther away from inner peace. Up until now any attachment I’ve discovered usually comes from a negative emotion, such as anger, frustration, sadness, worry etc… the negative emotion I experience is usually associated with a fear not being good enough, that I’m not doing enough, that people will dislike me, and the list goes on. But this “star-struck” experience with Ed Robertson was definitely perceived as positive, fun, exciting, and extremely special, which is why, at first, I didn’t quite see it as a trigger.

And I understand that you may be asking “Why are you over-thinking this? Just enjoy the experience!”. And I did, but that doesn’t mean I can’t learn from it either.

Simply put, when someone is not in harmony with their passion and purpose (no pun intended…, ok, maybe it was), they are miles away from inner peace. What is one way to become more peaceful? Music, of course! Take a look at the picture again, (um, hello Jeannie!) his shirt says “MUSIC HEALS”! So, instead of connecting on a real person-to-person or soul-to-soul level, and talk about music, healing, and peace, something was triggered inside of me to unconsciously act and react like a teenage girl meeting her idol. Why didn’t I mention the relationship between divine connection of Hermetic Sacred Geometry and musical vibration, or the powerful effects of the 528 Hz Solfeggio gold tuning fork that I use during a Spiritual Drug Detox healing, or simply the Drum Meditations that I regularly host?

So, because of an unconscious attachment to a fear that I haven’t yet resolved, I blew an opportunity to be fully present with someone who is a really cool person, and have an even more profound and exciting experience than the blathering and blubbering one I had.

Has something like this ever happened to you, where you’ve reacted in a way that didn’t make sense? Have you been so overwhelmed with emotions (positive or negative) that you revert to an old habit or pattern that you thought you outgrew? Can you see how a buried fear can resurface in the strangest way?

Normally we all have difficulty seeing our own personality flaws and quirks, but thankfully I eventually caught this sneaky one and can now work on releasing and resolving what is holding me back from having that deeper inner peace and being the real me. Ed Robertson, thank you for being present, for the experience, and the learning lesson, but next time we’ll have a brief chat about music that heals, and I promise I’ll be my authentic self!

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